I've decided not to allow myself to succumb to the darkness. I also can't resign myself to thinking that everything will come to me. I have to initiate it. I know why the same things keep happening, it's because I keep making the same mistakes. I know what I have to do. I don't have to say anything, I just have to move on
Sometimes, I'm surrounded by feelings of loneliness, it becomes clearer to me each day and desperation is pulled from that loneliness. I end up reacting, and I realize that I can never love until I let go of that desperation.
If I want to feel better about myself I need to detach myself from loneliness and desperation. A man will only desire a woman.